How much money is enough? More.

I am in a pretty good place emotionally these days. I find myself almost completely stable with my highs and lows much less extreme. However as with anybody who basically avoids real life for 15 years I have incurred some pretty nasty unsecured debt.

Time to get to work on it. So I sit in front of my terminal thinking about budget shit. Budgeting sucks because it really exposes how irresponsible I tend to be. I will go for months barely buying a thing. The I go blow my load in a bad way. I am impulsive, compulsive and money and I are repulsive. So you mix that up and you get on broke punk.

So what can I do? I am trying out some software to help track. Looking for help from the bank of course they can't help me without me helping myself. Isn't that always the way. Why can other people fix my problems. For years my mom did it. Why the fuck do I have to start now!

Maybe I should call my mom.