Smoldering love

10 years ago I was in a toxic relationship both parties had all but given up on themselves and each other. It COULD have worked out if we had reacted when we saw it coming.

Now I sit in a position 10 year later. Not NEAR the same position but the same sort of reaction is required.

I am a happy person. I have almost everything I want. There is only one thing I want more than anything at all....

Contentment.

I want to feel that although there are wrongs in our world and people make mistakes that there is an ability to feel content. I am content. But I don't feel content. Content is a two way street. I want everyone to be happy with what we have rather than look to what may be missing from time to time.

I try very hard each day to get to the next with a smile on my face. Sometimes I make it other times I don't but I really want to make it more than I do.

So here is my position I sit here and write what I am thinking, knowing others will read it and may take offense to it. But it is meant in the most passive and loving way.

Tbiz

"The media makes me sick."

I was watching my usual uptake on the true crime and investigative blogs and happened upon a video of Mr. Roy Kronk leaving his deposition. I was watching the video and as I always do really judging each in every one of those snide little goofballs with microphones all talking over each other and stumbling around like a bunch of buffoons.

But then I realized. My prespective is not from behind these douche bags. I am one of them. I am a lurker. The viewpoint I have is directly connected to one of those hands. Through the interviewer cameraman relationship. So I can not discredit what the interview is asking at all if I am listening to his/her feed. I have selectedd HER team? Know your mic handler. Know there questions. Support their cause. Don't just watch some douches feed. You just add to the circus.