I feel good today. Actually I feel better than I have in a long time. I feel relieved. Relieved to have found the source of my ANXIETY. Once an issues source is found it becomes easy to put that issue to rest.
I have found myself again. I know where I belong. I know what I need to do. That is better myself so I can be a valid partner. I need to quit blaming everyone for who I am and realize I am not bad so I need not blame anyone. You can only be beat down so far, and then you realize there is a ladder to climb up again. That ladder was fastened by my Angel. At first I felt unsure if I could trust that angel tied the knots hard enough. I though if she was willing to leave me in the hole now could she really be giving me a way out now? Well I took a chance. And now I am out. At the top I looked into her eyes and thanked her. Thank you for saving me. Thank you for showing me how strong I am and how strong we can be together.
So let this rest I say. Let it become a silly story. Let it become something we can look back on fondly and say. Remember that funny time when we thought we hated each other?
And then look at what we have achieved and say I am sure glad that is behind us.
BTW notice it is sunny today?